New Chapters of My Life

Sometimes can't an ending in your life just be the beginning to something new. It is true when you really think about it anytime a part ends it has to start with a new chapter. Sometimes it has to be easier to close a chapter of your life and start afresh. Possibly start somewhere that is new and different. Sometimes in life we go in these constant circles and don't actually go anywhere. We just do the same old thing that we have been doing for years. Say it is getting up, getting dressed, go to work, come home, cook food, watch tv, and then go to bed. We don't even realize how boring our lives are until we step back and really examine it. You know I think it is time for a new chapter in my life. I really have been pondering this for a long time. For instance, I just graduated from university, but I decided to take a hiatus from school to figure out what I wanted to do with my life. I have finally found some perspective. Some people may say that taking time off is crazy. "You are wasting so much time", but I think it is great for me. I am really getting to know myself and see that it is not a waist. I knew that one chapter of my life was closing, but I didn't know exactly where the next chapter would begin. But I realized that this chapter showed me that I don't have to do the same mundane things in my life. I know that I can expand my horizons. I don't want to be in a rut for the rest of my life. I want to be able to be an intelligent, independent woman. I want to be able to be my own person and outstretch myself for the future.

Can you really say it was a MISTAKE?

Have you ever wondered why we do some of the things that we do? Sometimes it doesn't make sense about the choices that we make. However, we have to deal with those choices regardless of how bad they are. I will say this that sometimes we do things that we regret. Or in some cases, we do bad things that we cannot ever regret. We may think that our decision was stupid, but regret means that we wished that we hadn't done it. But maybe being a selfish person, we say we regret things that we really would never take back in a million years. Regardless of your situation, we all do things that we should not have ever done. I guess that is life and that is part of growing up. We have to make mistakes to learn. But can you really say that something you don't regret was ever really a mistake. I guess not. It would not make sense to say HEY I made a mistake. I don't regret my decisions, but I have learned from my decisions as well. Sometimes I think that maybe if I do something it will change me for the better, but I keep making decisions that seem stupid to others. However, I can't change the person that I am. I have never been the type of person to follow in the cookie-cutter footsteps. I think that makes me a better person, but I do things that others don't think are good for me. But I guess that is just me. I hope that one day I can look back on my past decisions and still not regret them, because I don't want to be an old person one day and regret my decisions. I want to be able to say that I learned from what I have done. I don't ever want to regret this part of my life. I want to be able to say I have lived and learned through "JUST TRYING TO BE ME."